Rainbow Healing

I was reading somewhere “comparison” is a thief of joy and it got me thinking where do I compare myself to others? In my mind I always compare my childhood experience to others and it would leave me feeling less than, less loved or broken. All of these valid feelings however there is a point when firstly we don’t need to carry solely the feelings of what happened to us all our lives we can focus on the growth if we have agreed to do the work. The fruits are sageness, wisdom,  capacity to hold pain and hold love deeper within us. Everyone’s journey is different and some fight a silent battle within that we aren’t aware of. Our stories can bring inspiration. So next time we judge ourselves if we are worthy enough of our journey remember compassionately we are complete and whole as we are. Learning to reframe not what happened to us but what we became because of it. 

What does it mean to be? Be conscious of any fearful thoughts that arise for you. Fear is the veil that keeps us from being ourselves. It’s a lifetimes work to strip back and respond in love.
It requires to be conscious and question where is my energy being generated from. A place of love or a place of fear? You have to be to become. And we need to continuously stay in this cycle to come closer and closer to ourselves. The mysteries that lie underneath are timeless. Our capacity to be love and have gratitude is limitless. Our biggest challenges are our internal conflicts. Go back to being and sit and see where am I not moving in the direction of what is truly good for me, what will bring me back to my essence. Then move in the direction that you want to go. One small step will be assisted by many doors opening. Then again you may need to sit still and see where do I need to move to bring me closer to myself. In the times in between hold gratitude for all that you have all that you have become and hold hope close to your heart for all that is to come! This requires trust however it’s like riding a bike every time you come back closer you know hey this is bringing me back to the life I truly desire and meant for me. There is a process of grief that you must endure of all the ideas and beliefs of what life would look like and be. Then when you are able to reframe that you are in your power! You have god within you. The creator power to create your reality!

What takes to be a women? It’s your ability to be. It’s knowing your strength to love despite it all. Our strength comes in our ability to love not hate. We create links of strength between ourselves and those around us by staying in love. These links create strength in numbers by linking together. Our emotions are our secrets to the truth and knowingness within us. Society will throw out ideas in visuals of what women should be, how we should act and say. The secret to women is not in the visuals it’s in the unseen. Our beauty is being a women.

Accountability is powerful. We come to our light when we see our darkness and own it. We give ourselves the power to show up in the world the way we want to, with love and generosity. Especially if we have children, our children feel when we are not showing up as the best version of ourselves. With self compassion and love. They deserve to see us live our best life, which is authentic, healed and available for them. So if there is a part of you that keeps showing up not in love, see it, acknowledge it and heal it. We deserve to love ourselves and be there for the children of the world so they can experience fruitful and healthy lives. This is the best legacy we can leave them. And finally be grateful for all the relationships that are sent your way for yourself and family to hold space so you can heal. This is the law of the universe. Allow, allow, allow for everything is unfolding the way that it should for the highest good of all.

Resilience occurs through expansion. We limit our selves by how much we think we can love. This is a fearful mindset. We can turn this around by having faith that our life is in order even in chaos. Once we have worked through the lessons of love we will be in a higher state of peace within. Life occurs and I’ve learnt it truly works for us even if we aren’t able to see during the dark nights of our soul. To be able to move through it requires faith, like in a dark room everything still exists even though we are not able to see. This is an invitation towards faith that love is always there. In surrendering to the unknowns we become stronger. We keep love in our hearts and move through life knowing that we are moving towards ourselves everyday. When we know ourselves we will act in alignment with the universe and trust that we will be able to overcome any obstacles that cross our paths.

Out of hundreds of millions of sperm, only one will be successful to fertilize an egg. That fertilized egg became you. That is how unique and different we all are. No one of us was created the same. How can we be in competition with others? Instead of observing and appreciating the beauty in our differences. We have created a collective belief system that we must all look or do the same or else we don’t belong. A scarcity of love. We have forgotten we are created by love and that essence is what we are born with. This is what connects us. Our feelings of love. Each one of us is the unique loving expression of love. How beautiful that is. We are truly once in a lifetime!

Even as I write my posts, I am still learning and evolving. Life’s path is a beautiful spiral to reach deeper into our hearts. Lessons appear again and again to take us deeper into the learning, the understanding the knowing. That is infinite, a life times worth of curiosity and play, trial and error. The work at play here is to dive deep into the depths of love and be surprised and humored at our capacity to love. The thesis is named “Love” and the subject is humanity. To begin to understand love consciously is to understand our human condition.

Whatever energy we actively participate in we create in our reality. We participate in fear we create fear in our lives. We participate in trusting the universe we create love in our lives. Fear can actively show up in our lives. We are afraid of what we don’t know. The less we act on it and the more we trust that everything is working out exactly as it should. We are in the process of alchemising ourselves into a better version. Trust is a grace that softens our hearts and fear is a chain that hardens our hearts. Fear is an instinct that was primarily designed in our brains for us to stay safe from physical dangers. As time has progressed our fear has evolved to psychological fear. We have become more detached from ourselves our seasons. We are afraid of change. Change leads to transformation. We only have to look for these cycles in the natural world to remind ourselves from a tree, flowers and a butterfly. They all go through change, a process with stages in their lifetime for growth. Each stage is beautiful and some are easier than others. A tree endures many cycles from the moment a seedling sprouts to the time a tree dies. The decomposition of a tree into the soil creates nutrition for the seedling to grow. We are the same. A mother tree creates shade from the intensity of the sun for its seedlings to be able to grow. And once she dies it takes a few years for her children to adjust, grow and finally fill the empty space of the canopy with their leaves and branches. In every stage there is a trust, acceptance and flow into the next stage. As humans we loose balance in relation to our emotional and mental attachment to feelings and beliefs. We want to hold and are afraid to shed. Letting go is participating in the energy of trust. Life is a garden of births and deaths and each one is beautiful once we feel it within our hearts. Rumi writes, “life is a balance of holding on and letting go”. We need to hold on with gratitude to beautiful moments and when it comes to release them we need to surrender and trust for something better awaits us on the other side. Our expansion in the cosmos of love.

The universe is carefully listening to us and everything we ask for from love. Are we quiet enough to hear our prayers being answered? The universe is an infinite ray of potentiality. It is benevolent and merciful and its language is love.

It expresses itself in the energy of love. Our essence. Rumi said “What you seek is seeking you”. We are acting either from a place of love or lack of love. When we begin to act from a place of love. The universe is responding to our soul.. Love, the currency of the universe effortlessly flows back to us. Lack of love is an illusion created by our minds. When we can feel our pain, the veil of this illusion falls down. We expand and all we feel is love. We begin to see god in everything. Most importantly we begin to feel god within us. The divine consciousness of love resides within us. No matter what is played out in this playground. Our truth our essence is love. It leads the way.

We refer to our lessons as mistakes or failures. However I find these words to have a negative connotation that we have collectively created. Lessons in school helped us to move from kindergarten to university. This is life a series of lessons in our human evolution. If we become curious about our lesson’s we can pay attention and ask what they are teaching us.
In hindsight I am asking myself why did it take me 44 years to have clarity. I was subconsciously in pain, and consciously creating pain in my reality. The universe whispers then it shouts to bring you back to your true essence love.